The life I would have liked to of had with you. But I am broken and trying to fix myself on my own, it is hard and I have to fix myself on my own... I don't even know if you were ever a possibility in reality. But I had to try and tell you something..
Perhaps I need(ed) someone a little emotionally stronger than me to help me put myself back together into a better man. But I don't know what I am really doing any more...
I walk around with nice clothes on, my hair comed, my mustache trimmed and my face shaved, yet inside I am a screaming mess, waiting for something to happen in my environment, someone to cause a fight some where about anything, so I can just finally explode and let all the rage loose, let all my anixety,fear,frustration,worry, hopes and dreams just let loose .. and when the dust settles the blood dries up and everyone gets hauled off... someone stops and asks me , who are you and what happened.
Time to unsettle ourselves from the enforced soma consumption of our owners! And what better way than to hear it from the very people who were never allowed to fully be a part of the dis-eased free-dumb forced on them (and everyone, if you think about it!) from the get-go? A real inspiration, those voices which have not comprimized despite experiencing all manner of reflective reality from those who believe no better is possible.